Surviving every day is by grace
Dec 7 I think after all of these, I will be a stronger person. No amount of issues or heartaches can match what I (we) am going through right now. After these, all other pain and suffering will be more like a small speck and will no longer matter. I will just shrug it off and will no longer skip a heart beat or lose sleep. Everything else will be senseless. Dec 8 I don't know what to pray for. My selfish side would want to hold on to Papa as long as I can. But my other side would want him to rest. I wanted to know what he thinks, I want him to make a gesture, appear in my dream. Any sign will do. I don't want to decide. I wanted him so badly to stay, to spend Christmas with us, see the house completey finished. To see all his dreams coming true. But I feel like I may be asking too much. But if I lose hope, it's like losing hope in God. He have always surprised me with so much gifts, why think that He can't give it now. Why doubt now? Dec 9 I need to u...