Sleeping Satellite

 

When I look at the mirror,  I cry, I sigh…  I see an imperfect child of God  I see my big eyes and bulging eye bags,  The lines of my face,  My crooked lips and ears  I see the age in my white hair  The fat body that sags  Sadness that can't be denied. When God looks at me,  He sees my eyes that cares for her loved ones,  The tears from sacrifices... He sees my lips that encourages and the ears that listens, When God sees my white hair, He sees my wisdom in years  My fat body -- a healthy soul  An overflowing love for His people.  When I look at the mirror,  I smile, I laugh….  And one day soon, I will see as God sees me … an imperfect child but always perfect in His love.

This was written 07/15/2006.  I wonder what or who could have triggered these thoughts.  But one thing is for sure, I remember the feeling,  but I can't remember the boy anymore hehe No more of the darker nights,    none of those melancholic lines None of the bed bug bites   that keep me up, well it's a lie No more walks in the park  reminiscing the old days None of the long lost spark,  regrets you can't erase. No more wondering of how  it could be to see him when all that really matter is "now" I just need to live again. No more of those sharp dagger pain   but more of renewed spirit Realizing the beauty in Your name  You gave back my life and own it. No more of those false security  relying on one man's promise when I got Your love eternally what could be more than this?

“So, let’s say he loves you? What’s next? What are you going to do?” Gayle was caught off-guard and she has no words to respond. “ Will you move here in Prague to be with him? No! Will he move to Manila to be with you? I don’t think so. The sad truth is neither of you will commit to be with each other to make this work. So forget it, it will never work out.” These words hit Gayle like lightning. It was blunt, yet it’s true. His friend, Andrew is right. Even if Jason feels the same way about her, there’s no assurance of being together. “Is it worth the fight?” she thought. The next day is the gloomiest day of her life. It is the last day of her business trip.  All her previous plans of letting her feelings known to Jason is no longer an option. She needs to leave quietly, maybe just the usual goodbyes. She had to forget that the last four weeks were the best four weeks of her life. She had to act as if she’s not leaving her heart in Prague . But it is difficu...

Pano ba magsimulang  lumikha ng isang obra? Sapat na ba na may panulat at papel,  panahon at inspirasyon? Sapat na ba na may angkin kang talino? Sa iba't ibang pagkakataon,  nakamit ko ang lahat nang ito.. Pero hindi lumabas nang tama  at angkop sa panlasa ko, o di kaya'y sa panlasa ng manunulat... Pero may isang gabing lubha akong malungkot... Hanggang sa namalayan ko ang aking sarili  na nakahawak na naman sa aking panulat Hinayaang dumaloy ang kung ano mang nagtutulak  sa aking mga kamay  para  ilapat ang bawat titik, ang bawat saloobin... Pero sa bawat taludtod, o talata nasiyahan ako... At ang bawat lungkot ay napalitan ng kasiyahan... At ang kasiyahan ay napalitan ng kapayapaan... Natagpuan ko na ang kasagutan.. Sa bawat tangka ng aking panulat, nagkulang ako Nagkulang ako sa puso... Napagtanto ko na sa tuwing ang sinusulat  ko ay galing sa puso lalo na't para sa Kanya,  nagka...

   The parable today is more popularly known as “The Prodigal Son”.   I need not elaborate further what this is all about as I believe you have read and heard of this many times over.       To tell you honestly, there are actually times when I’m having a hard time accepting how the prodigal son can easily move back to the comfortable life after squandering half of his Father’s wealth. I can’t blame the “responsible son” for reacting the same way.   If I were him, I could have acted the same way, maybe even gave him cold shoulders for a few weeks just to make him suffer a bit more.       Recalling one of the talks at the Feast (Catholic prayer gathering of the Light of Jesus family), our preacher shares that most Christians (including Catholic Christians), who are in the ministry or community, are like the “responsible son”.     We tend to be self-righteous to the point that we feel that we should...